Hey Ocarina! Sorry for the lack of postings recently. I've been wanting to post since last week, but my life schedule changed a bit and here's a little update.
First of all, I hope you all had a wonderful weekend. I know I did, but it was very short lived. A new chapter has opened as I have recently received a new job. Full time, pay is alright, hours is kind of okay (early morning hours, hooray?)...but I haven't been receiving proper training for my position. My trainer has been throwing me a lot of tough assignments to do where I cannot make any mistakes, and I'm very confused in what I'm suppose to be doing.
It's hard to sleep it off on some nights due to the amount of uncertainties. Unfortunately due to connections, I can't quit the job in a heart beat (I really wish I could quit right now). I didn't want to ruin my brother's reputation since he got me the job; however, I truly hate working there. It's not because of the people, but the job is very demanding for perfectionism and I'm lacking training in a lot of areas.
It's hectic and disorganized, and often, I feel nauseous. I have a hunch that the trainer is trying to screw me over because she'll be quitting in early May, so she's passing on all the big important paperwork onto me. At the current moment, she assigned me to one important big paperwork, and I
literally have 0 experience at it. She gave me a quick tutorial and she told me I cannot fuck it up or else the accountants would have a really hard time dealing with it. Literally, my mind was going like this after hearing that:
Like you're shitting me right? You're expecting me to do this
PERFECTLY without ANY ERRORS when this is going to be my first time and you're going to be AWAY?
LIKE....REALLY????? WHY AND WHO THOUGHT IT WAS A GREAT IDEA FOR YOU TO TEACH ME!?
Yeah, my trainer is very incompetent and interestingly enough, the work place KNOWS she's incompetent. I do not understand why they still have her to train me at all. Her notes are very inconsistent and she would not teach me anything. Quite often, when I ask her a question, she would ask me a question (and she refuses to teach me how to differentiate some forms).
At the very moment, I have plan to talk to my manager about the issue. I do not want to create some huge fuck up cause that might actually ruin my brother's reputation. I have planned to use my vacation days towards the end of the year and I will be leaving shortly after in January 2017. Another new chapter unfolds in that year and I'm very excited about it.
I'm open to any suggestions as well if you have any. I'll have a happier update soon, but I just wanted to give a short update in why I've been inactive with the site the last few days.
